No regrets, just experiences.

Are you free?

How important is freedom?

Can we have too much freedom?

What would you risk for more freedom? 

We all have our value systems.  As a species we have developed countless value system.  Some of these have been specifically encoded and religiously enforced, and some are never consciously recognised nor alternatives considered.  For most people freedom means the freedom to dictate.  The financial freedom to dictate the labor of others, the political freedom to dictate behaviours of others, the social freedom to dictate norms of others, the religious freedom to dictate the religions of others.  Most people have no idea what freedom is.



I hold freedom in a very high regard.  If there is a judgement on my final day may it merely be that my life helped preserve, and improve, the free will of man.  We are all born with a gift from the Divine, the opportunity to become conscious creators.  It is a terrible gift once realised, the Original Sin.  We may choose to disobey the Order imposed on us, and tempt judgement and consequence.  Sin is the Science and Art of causing Change to occur in conformity with Will.  The use of our gifts of Free Will is always risky, the sacrifice that must be made to use our terrible power.  Neither Order nor Chaos improve our freedom alone.  They must be correctly balanced to maximise our freedom.  Modern society is dominated by Order.  We live regimented lives, existing to serve the whims of our employer and government.  Our Owners.  There may be a few exceptions to this reality, but currently authoritarian order dominates Free Will of Man.  This is an affront to our divine gifts, so we develop coping mechanisms to suppress our nature.

Beatniks, Hippies, Punks, Hipsters, etc… just different manifestations of the same thing. Each differentiated more by the secondary symptoms such as method of dress, common ideals, and rhetoric then by the actual environmental factors of their time and place that produce the given sub-culture.  Not because we seek approval from a specific sub-culture, but because we all grew out of a similar culture. We were raised by culture very different from that experienced by the generations before us, and thus produces trends that have superficial differences from the counter-culture of the past. The love of thrift stores is not faddish materialism, it’s anti-materialism. It is a trend that developed across the nation from a generation disenfranchised by materialism, commercialism, sweat shops, and landfills. Sure a handful of hipster elitists materialise and fetishize the trend, but that does not invalidate the genuine grassroots counter-culture that has defined a generation.  It's a coping mechanism. 

A common threat of all counter-culture is hate and distrust of Police.  This hatred of police comes from their new identification with a repressed minority. Though not likely to be completely conscious, their actions demonstrate a failure of the myth of authority. After disillusionment with authority comes disdain. Rebellion becomes self-reinforcing when people begin to identify more and more with the oppressed and lose their identification with any authority figures. Many waves have crashed on the shore, but eventually critical mass is reached and Order is dissolved in an Orgy of Chaos that consumes the freedom Order allows.  This occurs frequently on a personal basis, sometimes on a national basis, and is now poised to consume the very Eye of Authority. 

There exists a Western Banking Empire, the foundation of Western Economic Influence around the world, and subsequently (#2) government influence. Unless you deny the global influence of major financial institutions, and obvious corruption of political leaders at all levels by the existing monetary monarchy.  Our current civilisation is a creation of this Empire.  The Western Banking Empire is responsible for modern civilisation in the way a parent is responsible for their child.  Creation is not ownership.  Free Will is beyond ownership.  Authority was never granted to deny the return of The King.

Many of us knowingly serve the Empire, some consciously, some unknowingly, some for personal benefit, some who believe it is the lesser evil.  Particularly as Americans we are servants to the serpents of this Financial Empire.  We can not see the corrupt fruit we bare because conflict of interest is much more insidious than that. The sweat shops, factory farms, oil spills, war, poverty, and other injustices are cloaked with ignorance.  Most people are typically not conscious of their prejudice and warped perspective, after all we are members of a culture that perpetuates itself by actually believing the BS we're being sold. But it is just BS. Exponential growth can not continue in a finite world. 

Our current crisis is a debt crisis. It's consumer debt, it's sovereign debt, it's corporate debt, you name it. The whole usury scheme assumes exponential increase in wealth. Once things turn around, and start flat-lining, or declining, servicing the debts become a major drain on the economy at all levels. A drain that mostly supports major financial institutions. Sure there are plenty of 99% people with a stake, such as 401k, treasuries, bonds, and the like, but these are crumbs of a cake we can no longer afford to dump so much productivity into. When the debts finally evaporate, and they will, we can go back to producing labor for wealth instead of producing labor for debt.

Of course no Imperial wants their debt derivatives to fail. There are many stakeholders in our debt-based monetary/financial structures that don't want to see it all evaporate, but there's no more room on the etch a sketch. It's time to shake it and start over again. A great many people will loose a lot of wealth they thought they had... on paper, but once the dominoes of debt rebellion start to fall who's going to care about their credit rating over immediate needs? The debts must be written off because they can't get blood from a stone. These debts will disappear once we stop believing in them. 

We may step back from the real/not real, valid/not valid, fact/fiction dualities and realise that we are each weaver of our own myth just like all the other Wizards. I weave imagination into the fabric of observation in order to create a map of reality. Is it 100% correct? No. The map is not the territory. No map can be the territory. That’s not even the point.  This is story telling, just like any historian or anti-historian. Any validity in this rhetoric hinges on personal interpolation of the metaphors. Every truth is based on a thousand lies, and every lie is based on a thousand truths.

“Myth is much more important and true than history. History is just journalism and you know how reliable that is.” ― Joseph Campbell

There is a revolution going on right now, but this revolution must happen without direction. I'm not here to tell people what to do, or what to think. Anyone may know that they have THE light of Truth, but if you start shining it in people's faces you will only encourage defensiveness. Telling people what the truth is, is infringing on their right to Free Will. But as the world changes, more and more people will be kicked out of their simple world-view and be looking for a world-view that better explains their observed reality.  My task is to be there when they decide to look. To trail-blaze a path for others to find. Encourage the conditions for the revolution, but not impose expectations on the world. To act without acting. To do what is right for me, not to lecture others on what's right for them.  The music is already playing. I'm not trying to beat the drums to my own tune, I'm learning to sync myself to the rhythm that is already playing. To resonate with the theme that feels best for me and to be a part of the music.

I made sacrifices for my freedom.  I joined the military and learned what freedom was.  I've walked away from 3 very good jobs since then as an expression of freedom.  My financial well being has been significantly harmed by this process, but I move forward.  I do what I think is right at the time and follow the path it takes me.  No regrets, just experiences. 

Yule-time half-draft.

It's almost Yule-time again.  2011 was a great year for us and we hope your's was too.  Faced with unrelenting economic challenges we write our story of high adventure, struggle, and growth as a family.  We've spent this year adjusting to our new realities quite well, considering where we now find ourselves.  Although there's no telling what 2012 will have in store for us, we have faith in our family and trust to our fate. 

Elysia is now in Second grade and already an amazing person, though we may be biased.  It seems every day we're reminded that she's growing up to be the kind of intelligent and empathetic person with a mind of her own. Egan has preschool once a week, and he loves it.  It might be the only thing right now that he'd rather do then play video games.  Roslynn is a princess.  Beautiful and evil.  Despite many efforts to the contrary she's still able to push her brother and dad around like a spoiled princess. 

We march on into 2012, into uncertain times knowing that it's the struggle that shapes us.  A life of security and luxury is a false ideal.  We can see that in practice it only creates insecurity and emptiness.  Our worth can't be measured by our financial insecurities.  What we do is worth it because it's our story.  The narrative of growth is defined by adversity.  An investment in Character that pays richer then sacrifices to Mammon.  The path may not always seem apparent, so we walk with faith and good will to all.

Merry Solstice & Happy New Year!

Whatever the fates have in store for us.

Hello,

I'm a father, a veteran, a husband, a worker, an American, and a dreamer.  Things were going quite well for our family about 2007.  I had a good job, and we bought our first house.

Our house was $233k when we bought it, a fixer-upper in a Hispanic neighborhood, but it was perfect for us. 

Today it's worth about $145K, not considering the massive dry rot, mold damage, and tens of thousands of dollars in other major cosmetic issues.  Thats a $22K/year loss. 

During that time pressures in the job market drove me from a $72K/year job to $45K/year, a $27K/year loss. 

During this time our household share of the National Debt has went from $190K to $260K, a $17.5K/year loss.

I'm not going to go into why I believe the banks to be significantly responsible for our nation's, and my, economic collapse.  In hindsight it's easy to see the Usury and Political Corruption at the heart of our economic system, but I was an American Dreamer.  I'm not asleep anymore.  I've been rudely awaken to a Brave New World Reality, and I know nothing.  I have many suspicious.  These suspicions don't enlighten the sure path, they obfuscate the very idea of security.  I was tossed out of Plato's Cave and observed an apocalyptic world full of Zombies and Chaos.  But what is to be done?

"Be the change you want to see." ~Mahatma Gandhi

After the 2008 TARP fiasco I felt morally obliged to exercise civil disobedience against the banks, but what can a family man do?  Frustrated with Macro-Economic issues I viewed my own economic niche with a new cynicism.  Our national blight has been caused by those who fail to speak truth to power, and I would no longer be responsible for selling out my truth.  I placed my job on the line for what I thought was right, and found myself unemployed.  The decision to strategically default on the house became compulsory when I was left Jobless and without any income besides Food Stamps.  The knowledge that my 401K would also hemorrhage money and fail well before my retirement and a desire exercise an act of rebellion against Bank of America, gave me purpose, but not solutions. 

There was no telling how long we could keep our home, but we could still survive on my income if we didn't have to pay a mortgage (or student loan, or credit cards).  I no longer have any faith or good will towards a banking system of debt enslavement that has taken over our nation.  I felt no moral obligation to repay printed money with my labor.  My moral obligation is to fight back against the enslavement of my people, my family, my nation, the entirety of life as we know it. 

 "I believe that banking institutions are more dangerous to our liberties than standing armies. Already they have raised up a monied aristocracy that has set the government at defiance. The issuing power (of money) should be taken away from the banks and restored to the people to whom it properly belongs." — Thomas Jefferson

I don't regret the path I've taken, and I don't begrudge the toll I've paid.  I will follow the Hero's Journey wherever it leads.  The best I can do is what I think is right at the time.  Regret is only for those who think they can change the past.  My experience grows with each new adventure.  Losing often teaches better then winning.  I've lost a couple of skirmishes but the real Great Struggle hasn't even started yet.  I've sacrificed my family's security with a gesture that would appear to be totally inconsequential to the Great Struggle, but it's what I had to give and I gave it freely without expectation.  I will bear it.  Whatever the fates have in store for us.

"The future is up for grabs. It belongs to any and all who will take the risk and accept the responsibility of consciously creating the future they want." — Robert Anton Wilson

Cynical Agnosticism

I don't know how the world works, no one does. The only constant is chaos. Many fain comprehension of methods of madness, but any who claim comprehension are insane. Anything anyone can think they know of Humanity and the Universe we find ourselves in is an ignorant belief. Some beliefs are more informed by observation then others, but reality has a complexity well beyond the comprehension of any single mind. So how do we navigate the chaos without a perfect map? We work off maps we know to be untrue, but functional. Most Christians don't actually believe 100% of the narrative, many don't actually believe in most of it, but it's a narrative, a map, to a good life and a good society. However, beliefs cause people to feel the need to exterminate any different perspective in order to validate their own.

"...belief is the death of intelligence." ~RAW



So is it possible to function without belief? How do we navigate without a working map? The Scientific Dictatorship of the Future would have us give up personal navigation. The narrative of the greater good (according to a vetted elite) would effectively be transmitted to individual by the machines. The lack of diversity and the inbred group-think in such a society would create instabilities that we can easily see in the world today. We're blinded by our beliefs, we can't see what's right in front of our eyes yet we march proudly on. There is no way to know what we can't perceive, and no way to perceive the turbulent nature of chaotic interaction. The Chaos of Anons.




"We have long known that the objects of our palpable sense experiences can be influenced by choice—both conscious choice and unconscious. This is a demonstrated fact that does not require that we believe some force within us reaches out and touches the universe. I address a pragmatic relationship between belief and what we identify as "real." All of our judgements carry a heavy burden of ancestral beliefs to which we of the Bene Gesserit tend to be more susceptible than most. It is not enough that we are aware of this and guard against it. Alternative interpretations must always receive our attention." ~Mother Superior Taraza: Argument in Council


The real problem comes in with how our beliefs cause our realities. I belief this to be true on a metaphysical level, but it can be easily observed without invoking extra-reality explanations. Belief in any particular idea tends to cause the observation of said idea. Belief in Republican ideology tends to cause a world viewed with a republican narrative (Same for Dems, there's just a bit more diversity in the narrative). A belief in the fundamental goodness of man will lead to seeing the best in strangers. A belief in moral law leads to an imposition of criminal law. Belief in an authoritarian God leads to the formation of an authoritarian government. Our myths form our perspective, our lies form our real world.

It is then my belief that our salvation is cynical agnosticism. Nothing is real, but something is real. Any one idea is BS, but everything is BS. We live in our BS, but there's nothing we can do to escape an underlying emptiness to any belief. The fullness of life is to be found, not in a House of Cards, but in experience and perception. The House of Cards is how we shape our experience and perception. It's important, but not sacred. Beliefs are real, because they shape reality, but they're not creating the reality you want... then it's time to change your beliefs.

This is the awe-inspiring universe of magic: There are no atoms, only waves and motions all around. Here, you discard all belief in barriers to understanding. You put aside understanding itself. This universe cannot be seen, cannot be heard, cannot be detected in any way by fixed perceptions. It is the ultimate void where no preordained screens occur upon which forms may be projected. You have only one awareness here — the screen of the magi: Imagination! Here, you learn what it is to be human. You are a creator of order, of beautiful shapes and systems, an organiser of chaos." ~The Atreides Manifesto

A new reality

All media is propaganda, and all propaganda is an attempt at mind control. Manipulate reality by manipulating minds. The Art is real, and it is important. There's millions of robots out there. What would they do without programing? Become sentient because they lack other programing? No, they will find ANY other programing to run on. There's the more individualized programing, and there's the social engineering programing.

The actions often do not align with the rhetoric, but how can we know what another's conscious thoughts are? What his programing is? If he is individual programed, who did it, and are they programed? Most likely. And are their programmers programed? Most likely. It's also called culture. We have conscious cultural motivations and unconscious. Manipulating these has been reduced to a science (although it is an art) but that doesn't mean the programmers are in control. It only means they're trying to control, they're all still victims of their own programing and prejudices. Suspicions, observations, and intuition.

We can not all just ignore the subjective nature of reality, and pretend those who fit our truth/belief structure are the true arbiters of objective truth. All media is propaganda. "Scholarly" is just another defunct belief structure rooted in the elitist ideology that only the perspective of the properly educated/indoctrinated matters.

This is bullshit propaganda.

Because it's propaganda. Problem, reaction, solution. It's an artificial problem, with an intended solution.

I see the "Grand Conspiracy" as being the "Great Work" of the Masons, and other mystical cults. It's not a material plan as much as a vague idea, a path. There are many different factions trying to manifest the idea, but there's lots of competition between them. The reason we are not there yet is because we have not yet imagined how to get there yet. The internet is accelerating the sharing of imaginations. Any new reality must be born of our imagination, the seat of The Creator. We are creating a new reality.

Nuclear 6 Sigma & Quality Half-truth

I've always dealt with lots of quality and process controls. There's no process control like starting up nuclear reactors, and no inspections like ORSE (Operational Reactor Safeguards Exam); but I've also dealt with a number of corporate QMSs (Quality Management System). Everyone hates the extra overhead caused by Quality Management, but end customers expect it. ISO standardization requires most manufacturing corporations to maintain massive process and quality records, Naval Reactors required massive process and quality records. However, I doubt there is much in the world that matches the attention to detail required to train on, maintain, operate, calibrate, and repair the Instrumentation and Control electronics. It is my experience that most corporations treat their QMSs more like a Red-Headed Stepchild (RHS) then a Golden Child. Record-keeping becomes a labor overhead and excessive chances for documenting errors. The motions are carried out only to satisfy the needs of the RHS, with little regard for any actual value the stepchild adds. After all, stepchildren are to be seen not heard. Quality Control is to be seen, not practiced.

There plenty of valid reasons this is so. In practice QMSs do tend to be excessive labor overhead and where errors are caught or made-up. If our training records did not display near-perfect, but not too perfect, matching of experience to exam scores, it was a hit against us in ORSE. When records are expected to be perfect, they must be maintained with a detachment from reality. I had to write exams that would make expected measurements. Good, but not too good. Creative grading was sometimes used in order to generate desired records. Such qualitative measurements can easily be massaged. Records must match expectations. This rarely takes the form of blatant record falsification, the testing is adjusted, the data is massaged, the truth is hidden under a fabric of half-truth.

I know how to hide reality under a fabric of half-truth, but more importantly I know how it is done. QMSs like Six Sigma strive for a statistical certainty of improvement, yet in practice companies see only extra overhead and micromanaging. I'm familiar with how Quality Control fails everyone, but I'm also familiar with how it can be correctly used. Obviously passing ORSE is not the sole purpose of nuclear reactor maintenance records and QMSs has more value then obtaining an ISO certification.

My new company lacks the bureaucracy, institutionalization, and corporate death-traps of QMS that my previous company had. As I work through my training on equipment unlike any I've worked on before, I am going to work on improving the training documentation and control. I am going to try and use my experience to find the most helpful balance of documentation and control vs. audit traps and labor overhead. I suspect that there will be plenty of opportunity to take on these tasks, without trampling on the toes, egos, and jobs of others. There's not much chance that I'll make up the lost income of my job transition, but when you see past the half-truth of monetary gain and instead measure career growth by experience and opportunity, I still feel I am on an excellent path.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

2010 has been a year of trials for our family. After starting the year out freshly unemployed, we explored many different career options. We dedicated one bedroom to growing oyster mushrooms for profit, but found no one wanted to eat food grown on trash. Grammy help us out a whole lot, and helped me get work building a website for a friend of hers, but when it was done so was the work. Eventually I found work with Disco, a Japanese company that manufactures more then 80% of the world’s semiconductor dicers, grinders, and polishers. I will be the Laser Saw expert for Intel.

We spent most of the year without any income, but never went without. Whenever we were down to our last dime, something always came through. We were without health insurance, but never needed it. We learned how to adapt, and trust to fate. We’ve learned to trust our luck much more then in the old days.

Brandy and I built our own website (www.Life-Wharton.com) in order to house our creative ideas and hopefully make a few bucks. Although we’ve yet to take in enough profit to cover operating costs, we intend to keep the website up as a repository for our creativity and a way to explore mystical experience (If you’ve never had one you should). As time passes our website will grow and change with us. It is a reflection of ourselves in the virtual world. Our family’s foothold in the web, sharing ourselves with the world.

Elysia (6) started 1st grade this year, and has started attending Girl Scouts. Three years ago she made the decision she was a vegetarian, I figured it was a phase that she would soon forget about. Three years later, and she still takes her vegetarianism very seriously. We are so incredibly proud of her self-confidence and commitment to what she feels is right for her. She has experienced much more judgment and ridicule from classmates, friends and family, then I ever thought such a young child could bare. I don’t understand why people take such offense to her decision, but her steadfastness on her beliefs has been an inspiration to us.

Egan (4) discovered the Xbox this year, and has been great at getting his chores done ever since. He’s always been such a laid back guy, punishments never seemed to have much impact. We’d tell him to go to time-out, and he’d just go like he was planning on doing that anyway. If we ever spanked him, he would retreat inward and anything we said after word was met with glassy eyes. But we threaten to take the Xbox away... he’s all ears and will do whatever it takes.

Roslynn (2) is a Honey butt. The sweetest, most caring little girl, except when she’s not. Egan is often on the receiving end of her evil side. She knows just how to push him around, and he never shows any aggression back. He knows that you never hit a girl. Even when we’re playing and I play boxing with them, he’ll say “Stop dad! You don’t hit girls”. Unfortunately Roslynn has yet learned to reciprocate. When she gets a time-out for hitting her brother, we tell her she needs to apologize, normally she refuses and we have to send her back to time-out. She’s spent a considerable amount of time in the corner on a number of occasions before she was willing to let go of her stubbornness. She even spent a few weeks refusing to leave time-out if she felt she was sent there unfairly.

The road of life has taken us many places and yet there is so much more to explore. We are thankful for every moment we have together and for everyone who shares our journey with us.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

Jason, Brandy, Elysia, Egan and Roslynn Jay

Sonzai no Akashi

My new company is a Japanese company. I've worked in German companies, Korean companies, and a number of American companies. Of course there are many differences between any two companies within a nation, the differences between nations is quite dramatic. All companies have some sort of mission statement. The idea being that successful companies have mission statements, so mission statements make companies successful. There a plenty of examples to follow, each an example of how another company was successful. All publicly owned companies have only one mission, make money for shareholders. The shareholders tend to be nothing but investors, and interest in the company tends to be limited to stock price. Stock price having been reduced to an extremely complex equation of gross margins and asset inflation.

My new company's mission statement is "Sonzai no Akashi." Typical of Japanese business concepts, it doesn't really translate well so you should learn the Japanese word for the concept. According to Episode 28 of Kiba it means "Proof of Existence" or I would guess, mission statement. Working with pan-language technical documentation give you a good idea exactly how badly things translate sometimes. Siemens would name high voltage power supplies as low voltage "network box" because it's how the German word translated. It's the box that connects you to the "electrical network". So it's important to remember "Sonzai no Akashi," or the company's values. Disco lists them as:

-A corporation is a social system that assists people in attaining happiness and a comfortable living.

-Each corporation must choose a specific business domain to accomplish its own social mission.

-Each individual has responsibility as a member of society, but what people can do as an individual is very limited. This is why they take part in a social system called a "corporation" and work in order to accomplish the mission of the corporation. This, in effect, allows them to fulfill their own responsibilities.

-Working at Disco means aligning our aspirations with Disco's. By increasing the mission-achievablility of Disco, each one of us can ensure our existence in society and obtain satisfaction from work as well as achieve Self-actualization.

It's a bit different from, "We're a corporation. We pay you to make money for the shareholders." Of course making money is a necessary part of fulfilling responsibilities, but it's not the main purpose of the corporate social system. There are important practical differences in corporate philosophy. They also list:

"Behavior Identity - Always the best, Always Fun - this is our motto. Always the best refers to the pursuit of the very best under any circumstances. Always fun is the effort to always enjoy your work.

If everyone of us gains a proper understanding of Disco Values and Disco Vision and puts them into practice, we will be able to establish a dynamic corporate culture that enables us to overcome the tides of change no matter how big or challenging they may be."

I tend to very much dislike when I company tells me what my values should be, but it works out quite well when I feel the company's values match mine. The company also refuses to sell products to any company that produces parts for nuclear weapons. The company is based out of Hiroshima, and started in 1937.

Requiem of Unemployment

13 Years ago I went into the Navy Nuclear Power program. Not really because it was a job I wanted, but because it was a job I wanted to have had. It was a career decision, and one I'm still glad I made. Being able to say I operated nuclear reactors on submarines was something I wanted to have on my resume, but also it was a place I could aways go up from. It wasn't something I fully understood when I made the decision, but I knew college degrees where getting more expensive and much cheaper. The right answer for my generation always was the college degree. Without a college degree you can not expect anything more then a service job. Student loan programs allowed anyone who could do the homework and memorize short-term text book data to get the punch cards of success. It wasn't exactly a thought out decision at the time, but at 18 it was a chance to bring in an income instead of debt. To get an interesting resume item, to experience something interesting, and learn the appreciation of freedom you just can know until you've spent a 7 1/2 month deployment on a submarine. I always had libertarianism leanings, so maybe it was a very sadistic choice. A fan of all the standard libertarian literature (Huxley, Orwell, Chomsky) and had a pretty clear understanding of NWO Empire I was working for. It was communism, the police state, military disciple, all the worst of totalitarianism with 100 men living in 300 feet of submarine (the vast majority of which is engine room and nuclear compartment) 800+ feet under-the-water for months at a time. Of course I hated it, most do. I didn't really completely understand how much I would hate it, but I figured I could handle it, and after that everything is roses. I signed up for 6 years, 2191 days, and I started counting it down from the very day I started. A 2 year crash course in nuclear engineering and 4 years work experience on a boat it was an intelligent career move. I got to do very interesting (though actually incredibly boring) work and have marketable skills without working up a big debt (though I later worked up a huge debt anyway with an abandoned attempt for an MBA from University of Phoenix Online [I now know that it would have been worthless for more then a few reasons]). I knew the Navy would be the embodiment of the worst of Huxley and Orwell's dreams, I grew up knowing Star Wars by heart. The Empire are the bad guys. Yeah, there are plenty of reasons we are better, but life on a submarine is about as close as anyone can get to the Star Wars Empire, or as the totalitarians would think the United Federation of Planets.



Somehow I knew quitting my job when everyone else knew the opposite was also the right thing to do. It wasn't an easy decision, and it proved to be a difficult question in interviews. It was also a difficult question with family. Everyone knew college was the right choice, everyone knew a secure job was the right choice, but for some reason I tend to value the experience over the common knowledge. If you know something without thinking, common knowledge, then someone's not thinking. So I have a tendency to explore it, for the value of the experience, or least in hindsight it seems so. I was very successful in the Navy. In those six years I made it to First Class (E-6), but I'd be damned if I ever got scored highly on military bearing. In that world sometimes the correct balance of rebellion and submission was just wearing white socks and being really good at your job anyway. I did what I needed to make it though and by the end I was happy with the experience. I got to see the world (our Universe), learn that most of the military (our Storm Troopers/Federation) are pretty good guys after all, and learn a valuable skill set.

This time I learned what is like to be unemployed during the greatest economic depression. Economic Darwinism is the greatest sin of Capitalism. Those who can't afford to live, don't. Those who aren't productive enough for capital masters are nubs (non-useful bodies) and don't deserve the air they breath until they've earned their way. It's a nice system, unless you're a nub. Slavery seems nice, if you're the master. However, in hindsight we now know it's not even a very efficient method of labor organization. Today we're all a number. Our degrees of freedom are measured in dollars earned and those without get no freedom at all. But much like how the military can denounce totalitarian communism while practicing it, we praise our freedoms while denying economic freedom to anyone who a capital master will not employ. Most of these liberty intrusions seem simple enough, why not give up a little Liberty for economic security? Because it's not a very efficient system. Authoritarian models always amplify the errors of the leaders, distributed-chaotic models have inherent error correction.

I knew there was some reason I had to make the choices I made, but I can't always explain why at the time. Sometimes it is only through hindsight that I can see why the experience is worth the trial. I trust to my intuition, if it seems wrong at any point, it is because it was a lesson I needed. I survived the trials of unemployment and came out the other side better for the experience. What short-term losses in monetary freedom I incurred, was a fair trade off for the increased potential I now have with a new start in a smaller company. Corporate loyalties are often sold cheaply. We've all became little more then prostitutes, selling body and soul to highest bidder. Character being of little consequence. I know that is something that must change, but change comes from grass-roots personal choices. When America is most terrified of the economic terrorists, is the time to learn not to fear, the time to take risks. Now I have an opportunity to be an economic player again. I've fixed and operated nuclear reactors, I've fixed and installed state of the art medical equipment in every state (ok, not Hawaii), I was at the Foxconn suicide factory to provide technical support for the initial iPhone manufacturing, and now I'm going to be this region's only expert on the Cadillac of Laser Dicers. I'm not deployed for months at a time, I'm not traveling all over the country. I have an opportunity to really make a name for myself in a small company with a domination on a narrow aspect in semiconductor manufacture, and the experience to know why I make the decisions I do.

I want to teach men how to fish, but first I must figure it out myself.

I am working to develop practical ways to stem the tide of centralization, monopolization, authoritative, and bureaucratic culture. Key to this endeavor is finding profitable and sustainable methods of small-scale local food production. The death of the American Farm was the death of American Freedom. Agrarian life is a human way of life, and the quality of our food is the quality of our life. By working to engineer methods of profitably manufacturing food on the small scale, I can work to reduce reliance on mega-corporations for food and employment.

So I am going to put together open-source business plans for these ideas.

-It will be a way to fully incorporate the growing and preservation of food for commercial distribution.
-It will strive for resource independence and product abundance.

Peak oil/dollar will cause very high (relative) energy prices. This will cause severe inflation of food prices. Not only will the costs to transport the food increase, but synthetic fertilizers, pesticides, tires, and farm equipment are also dependent on the price of crude (in American Dollars). This is a dire fact of our future, but also an important opportunity to find better solutions. Food prices will soon skyrocket, finding new solutions for efficient food production will be very advantageous to myself and society.

I'm going to start some more experiments to test the profitability of high-density urban gardening. What size of space is required to feed a family of 5? What size of space is required to support a family of 5? The first question is a matter of experience, the latter will become much more evident as food prices continue to rise.

As I said, this project will be open-source. I will be recording my endeavors on blog, picture, video, and posting it all online. I will log the tedious and the tenuous. I will create a business model to be copied and shared, a spark to light a fire of good food and independence from the systems that enslave us. I want to teach men how to fish, but first I must figure it out myself.

The Plan

I've been trying to figure out a way new way to live. Some way that I don't overly compromise my freedom for security, personal freedom for financial freedom, and intuition over convention. I need to be able to produce wealth, not prostitute myself to corporations. There is nothing wrong with being a prostitute, but selling your body is not a path to personal freedom. Though honestly, I would love to find a nice job with a corporation.

So I'm really left with little choice but to start some form of business. My first thought was Oyster Mushrooms. However, the overhead costs involved in making it a middle-class income business where enormous. I could easily produce value, but competition from large capital has driven prices down to poverty levels on the kind of capital I could put together. So I need a "value-added" product, not a simple commodity. I'm looking to incorporate other forms of high-density farming to produce canned foods for selling on Amazon, and locally.

If I was able to rent a small light-industrial lot, preferably one with a place to live on it, could I produce enough year-round mushrooms, tomatoes, honey, broccoli, squash, and other foods to support a canned food business? They'd be specialty foods and carry a high mark-up for having a health/sustainability/family message. I haven't done the math yet, but this is were the plan is going. I'm still figuring out how big of lot will I need, what's available, capital costs for industrial canning and doing a search for investors, but it's looking pretty good right now.

Organic is a crappy term. Everything living is organic. No inorganic life has yet been discovered, though it is theorized that some aliens could be silicon-based. The term organic comes from the use of organic and in-organic fertilizers. Lots of independent testing has shown that there is little difference in the final product either way. However, in-organic fertilizers are not sustainable in the long-run. They are dependent on cheap crude oil, their source. Peak oil makes organic farming far more competitive with in-organic. It might make the world dependent again on organic methods. I want to work to solve the problems of dependence on non-local food, as well as develop methods of less climate-dependent food production.

Tomato plants will grow indoors all year round. However, they need bees to make tomatoes. Becoming a bee-keeper helps increase the number of bees out there, and learning the lessons of how to keep them will help spread the knowledge. But how many would I need to make harvesting and selling the honey profitable? It's just math. The correct balance of bees, and an indoor farm. Broccoli and some other plants can grow in very simple green houses, and I'll figure out an ultra efficient heating/cooling system for them. The mushrooms will grow on paper I can get for free, and help generate plenty of compost along with the rest of the operation. Maybe I'll add chickens and fish to help achieve an independence on in-organic fertilizers.

Many distant ideas are coming together. Now it's just math to make it work, and finding the capital to get it started. It's going to happen, I just have to figure out how and when.

I am society, and I've got a lot of improving to do.

The world's a pretty crazy place right now, thought you really wouldn't know it watching corporate media. We've all been presented a perspective that drips confidence in a world view. Right now a world view they want to transmit is Don't Panic the Elite have control. Whether it's media, government, education, science, or our corporations society works on a pyramid level. What we are, what we think we know, what we can think, values, judgments, our every sense of reality must come from authority. The model of the pharaoh hasn't changed much in 2000 years, they've just come up with more efficient models. This model is now failing.

The music industry knows the wrath of connectivity. Pyramid models of distribution are how control is maintained. It's how they can tell us what to like, and what to hate. But now we're moving into a media saturated environment. We're moving from a few controlling a mass, to a mass controlling a few. Artists will work for their audience, not the recording label. Popularity drives the income so the material that is popular with the most amount of people is rewarded most by the corporation. They've driven the soul out of music because it's most profitable when it appeals to the largest segments of the population. The use of strong sexual suggestion is well studied and implemented because appealing to subconscious cues brings in the money. They got very good a selling us products, not making music. Now recording labels are nearing obsolescence, and the whole music industry with it. You may not notice the effects of this now, but over the period of a generation it will be dramatic.

Cascading failures of this organization model will unloose profit control from every other place we can get data. Be that education, information, movies, games, or anything else that can be reduced to ones and zeros. The spirit of our culture is freeing itself. This will present a profound change in the structure of the human race. This presents a Brave New World that breaks with the previous Age of human organization. Who controls the spirit of our culture controls the human machine.



People are generally comforted by an elitist/pharaoh/pyramid model. It's what we've all been trained to accept and love. It's the only model. The elite are trained to know they are better and wiser and the people would be headless without them, and rest are trained not to use their head. Too much thinking only causes more issues for the elite to resolve for us. As this model breaks down we will all feel a loss of control. In the transition to real freedom fear is all we have to fear. Fear is another subconscious cue well practiced by those paid to do so. It is also very corrosive to our humanity. Whatever happens, Don't Panic. Sit back relax, and take control of the reality YOU create. Realities created out of fear, can by quite fearful.

So I guess the dilemma is finding employment that wouldn't even do a Facebook search, or doesn't care that support non-standard beliefs or that I am also starting a website. I will not give up on my interests for security.

This is how freedom is curtailed. Government takes many forms. Often it is our employers. The physical force need not be used when economic forces maintain the illusions of freedom. We are all minorities. We are divided by political, social, religious, age, economic, education, regional, and sexual identities. We are right about the world and everyone else is wrong. To think otherwise is to question our own identity. Our political party was always right, our race was always right, our religion was always right, our generation was always right, our social values are always right, our ancestors were always right. So many glass walls of faith in our beliefs that we've become terrified something might break. The time of the mega-corporations control our government, education, employment, news, music is at a climax. The time of isolating the individual from society is ending, now the individual is the society. I am society, and I've got a lot of improving to do.

"Men become daily more free, because the freedom of the man lies in his reason. He can reflect upon his own future conduct, and summon up its consequences; he can take wide views of human life, and lay down rules for constant guidance. Thus he is relieved of the tyranny of sense and passion, and enabled at any time to live according to the whole light of the knowledge that is within him." ~Albert Pike

I like to set life to difficult to get more experience points.

To those who don't know me I'm an unemployed husband, father of 3, war veteran, submariner, nuclear/medical/Semiconductor electronics technician. I left my job for many reasons. Pride, frustration, statement, and adventure to name a few. Although many of you may not see what is going on the the world right now. I do, and this is how I'm doing something about it.

-I don't pretend to understand what is going on.
-I love information and surf porno for pessimists for fun.
-I feel I have a pretty rational grasp of what is going.
-I want to share my story so others can learn and be entertain by it.

It is very important for people to blog. We need to record our stories and share who we are with each other so we all can learn and discover common humanity. There is a "They" out there. The parasites on humanity. The way we are going to cure ourselves of this affliction is leaning not to be afraid of each other. The American Republic has been hijacked by people who split us up into Democrat/Republican, Pro/Against, Black/White, bullshit while they've robbed this country dry and are crashing the economy. You may disagree with much of what I think, and who I am. But I think I'm right so I blog about it.

Quiting my job in a recession like this is a very difficult path. Worse then being laid off because I don't even get unemployment. We do what we can for money and grow much of our own food. We've been forcing ourselves to venture a path I think many more people are walking, and soon most of America will follow. You may not see the House of Cards collapsing, but I do. This is not the only reason I quit my job, but knowing it was time to get prepared for SHTF was a major factor. Since then I have done what I can to get by. I got a somewhat temporary job setting up a website for a fiberglass company. He's having a really hard time in this economy as well, but I was able to attract a little more business for him so he could afford to hire me. It's nice to have work, but unless I'm a really good fiberglass salesmen AND web designer this solution won't last long. I've also been applying to many companies I'm very qualified for, but a combination of competition, web history, or whatever has kept me unemployed.

Deleting my public image from the Internet may be possible, but I make the choice to live this way because I feel it is important not to have to be ashamed of who we are. It was once thought that the only way we could live is hiding all political, hobby, non-work related interests from the working environment. Now posting complex thoughts on current events at home makes you unemployable. But I choose to no allow a don't-ask-don't-tell policy to extend to my economic thoughts, political leanings, perspective on current events, and other musings. So I'm trying to learn how to find a place in this NWO, were I can survive and thrive. If the economy is crashing anyway I'm going to be who I want to be. A professional celebrity, on the amateur level. I'm going to log my experience because that is who I am. This is a game, and this is how I'm playing it. If we share our experiences, we can all get better at this game. I may not be very good at this yet, but the only way I'm going to get better is by doing it. If that interferes with my work prospects then it interferes with the person I choose to be. It violates my rules of this game.

By Blogging I share the perspective/knowledge/mysteries/mistakes etc of this experience because there is value in it. Most people (Including pretty much any corporate HR department) choose to see this as a liability. They're wrong, but thats pretty hard to explain before getting hired. I want to share the information I've collected about Canning, Growing Oyster Mushrooms, Crafts, Conspiracies, Religion and Spirituality because it's what I do. It's my hobby and I will not be ashamed of it. It gives me more experience points and allows me to share them with an ever growing audience. If we each only connect to .001% of people, we can connect to millions on-line. My Facebook page has 81 followers, so I think I connect to much less then that. But this is the choice I've made.

I know the life I want. All I want is the right to be me. A frugal life where I'm not ineligible for work because I'm a thought criminal. It's my line in the sand to the world and the rules I choose to play by. I will never get there if I don't try, and I will not get good at if I don't try. This is my purpose.

"The reasonable man adapts himself to the world; the unreasonable one persists in trying to adapt the world to himself. Therefore all progress depends on the unreasonable man." ~George Bernard Shaw

An exercise sensibilities

We have wish to impose our will on others. We all wish to indoctrinate people into our arbitrary perceptions of the subjective. But no matter how well intentioned; dictating judgment on the subjective is imposing belief structures. It is an attempt to limit freedom of mind and spirit. However, there's a difference between dictating belief structures and sharing belief structures. I am not here to tell you what is. I am here to tell you what may be. I am here to build connection. Connection builds empathy. Empathy builds mutual understanding, and a belief in a shared humanity.

I don't think combating systemic corruption is as hard as some people would like us to imagine. The many tentacled conspiracy puts a lot of energy into maintaining humanity on the lower levels of the Hierarchy of Needs, but their grip on the world is crumbling. Their ability to dictate consensus reality is falling apart. This leaves us free to imagine something different. To imagine a complete rethinking of our economic, social, mythological, and political frameworks. Imagining a structure that encourages human elevation over profit taking and consumption. If you imagine The world economy as an island you can see why our need to consume, our need to "make a profit" is so harmful to our island and it's resources.

Currently we buy into the idea that security is money, when it is actually the opposite. More wealth only creates more fear of loss. So much of what we think we're doing has the exact opposite effect. Our logic is nothing more then a rationalization of prejudices. This is why I am trying to learn how to Live Well Without a Job and With (Almost) No Money.

"Life has become immeasurably better since I have been forced to stop taking it seriously." — Hunter S. Thompson

We just need to relax, let go of anger and fear. This world can be an Eden if we just allow ourselves to believe it can be. Maybe I can't make this world a paradise, but I can try, I can live, learn, and imagine alternatives. Set an example for my children, with mistakes and success.

I imagine a world were Jesus Was a Mushroom. I imagine that humanity is about to Immanentize the eschaton and expel the corrupting forces within the Abrahamic religions (Jeusits and Zionists) that are intent on keeping the Earth a prison planet. I choose to see the world approaching the Luciferian New Age prophesied in the Bible:

2 Peter 1:19 "And so we have the prophetic word confirmed, which you do well to heed as a light that shines in a dark place, until the day dawns and the morning star rises in your hearts"

The Morning star is Lucifer. Many secret societies (such as the Freemasons) are Luciferian (not satanic). They see Lucifer as the Light-Bearer and the source of wisdom and enlightenment (as the serpent enlightened Adam & Eve). This is why there are strong prohibitions in Christianity against knowledge (spiritual and material), peace, freedom, and liberty. These fundamental human needs are withheld from us and deemed key to all that is evil. When instead prohibitions against our Free Will are prohibitions against our own divinity.

Genesis 3:4-5
"You will not surely die," the serpent said to the woman. "For God knows that when you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil."

More and more people are eating the fruit. The spirit of Lucifer is rising in our hearts and what she teaches is Good and Evil. Awakened from our servitude we become free to imagine new reality. Humanity is awakening to our place in the Universe but we must earn our freedom. Jehovah is the archetype of the authoritarian, played by parents, order, government and religion. Lucifer is the archetype of the libertarian, played by children, chaos, rebels and the spiritual. Not good and evil, but two aspects of The Whole. Aspects of us all that need expression.

How do we create an enlightened, peaceful, and liberated society without further centralization of power? How do we overcome modern Christian prohibitions against such a society? I'm trying to explore the issue. The goal here is not to offend sensibilities, rather to exercise sensibilities.

The loss of naiveté

"The fruits of the toil of millions are boldly stolen to build up colossal fortunes for a few, unprecedented in the history of mankind....We have witnessed for more than a quarter of a century the struggles of the two great political parties for power and plunder, while grievous wrongs have been inflicted upon the suffering people. We charge that the controlling influences dominating both these parties have permitted the existing dreadful conditions to develop without serious effort to prevent or restrain them. Neither do they promise us any substantial reform.....They propose to sacrifice our homes, lives and children on the Alter of Mammon; to destroy the multitude in order to secure corruption funds from the millionaires." -People's Party


Money is power over other people. I imagine a way of living were I can find happiness without invoking the power of Mammon. Money is evidence of servitude to a corrupt monetary system. We don't service our fellow man in return for money, we service the capital masters in return for their favor. Why is a poor man less deserving of your service then a wealthy man? I find happiness in supporting those who don't feel entitled to my service. I am a Libertarian Socialist.

It has been suggested that Ayn Rand was a Rothchilds mistress and that she was a Druid Witch of the Illuminati. Lady Gaga is also thought to be a Witch of the Illuminati because of her use of occult symbolism, as does the dollar bill, but that is because of the belief of magick behind the symbols, not because they're a part of a grand conspiracy. There are people of all factions within the music industry and politics, but ultimately what is popular is what we want. Occult symbolism works on our subconscious to make us want it more, but what's the answer? Illegalize magick because it works? Freedom means freedom. Freedom means that we're all allowed to partake of the fruit of the Knowledge of Good and Evil. Freedom means awakening to a far more complicated world then we could have imagined. The loss of innocence, the loss of naiveté.

"The time is coming when we'll all have to choose: either the crushing, soul-rending orthodoxy of the Conspiracy or the anarchic, radical freedom of The Invisibles. One makes the world what it is, while the other shows the world what it might be. Right now, things don't look very good for the other." ~Grant Morrison

Western science is a materialistic pursuit. And that also summarizes many of it's failings. All that hard work to disregard the effects of perception and placebo, when perception and placebo craft our entire reality. The argument of materialism vs spiritualism is a false dichotomy. We are all at the mercy of physical AND spiritual demands. If each human is an intersection point in these two contradictory realities, then humanity is a plane of existence slightly removed from both. Ultimate purpose may be beyond the comprehension of the individual, but if each individual follows their perceived purpose, then as a whole we can start to imagine an ultimate purpose... or at least that's what my muse suggests. It has been wrong before.

The Collective unconscious can become, and is becoming conscious. Thanks in large part to the Internet, Facebook, and much more advanced forms of communication & analysis just around the corner. I choose to see the New Age as the emergence of a conscious humanity. I can't define the bounds of this conscious humanity, but I'm sure that as long as we believe it can not come close to the power of The Demiurge, then it won't. I imagine that we are only what we imagine ourselves to be.

"This is the awe-inspiring universe of magic: There are no atoms, only waves and motions all around. Here, you discard all belief in barriers to understanding. You put aside understanding itself. This universe cannot be seen, cannot be heard, cannot be detected in any way by fixed perceptions. It is the ultimate void where no preordained screens occur upon which forms may be projected. You have only one awareness here — the screen of the magi: Imagination! Here, you learn what it is to be human. You are a creator of order, of beautiful shapes and systems, an organizer of chaos." ~The Atreides Manifesto

This is the Divine Chaos.

"Don't walk behind me; I may not lead. Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow. Just walk beside me and be my friend." — Albert Camus

Welcome to all my new Facebook friends. I'm a 31 y/o father of 3. I left my job after realizing the harm I was causing. I left to work on building a better reality for everyone. I chose to start doing what I felt I should do, not what I was told to do. I blog my experience, both personal and within the world at large. I contribute my experience to the whole in order to improve our shared understanding.

There are more and more reasons for people to become totally disenfranchised with our dominant cultural expectations. The American Dream has been drifting further and further away as the gap between rich and poor widens, but now it is in complete collapse. The Quickening. Our previous social contract was a failure. It is time to re-write our expectations. It's time to abandon judgment, it's time to imagine something new.

Trickle-down Reaganomics was a fraud and technological advances have not lightened our burdens. This is because capital only follows a profit to shareholders. There is no reason we can not afford to feed and shelter our entire population. Failure to do so is a burden we must all bare. The terrors of financial insecurity attack our freedoms, not men living in the caves of Afghanistan. Our failure to comprehend the suffering financial insecurity has caused is due to our belief in a media manufactured reality. A reality manufactured by the need for profit to shareholders. It's time freedom becomes a motivation.

You're not actually free unless you're wealth, then you have all the freedom you could want. Money is freedom in our social contract, and freedom is alloted to those who conspire to take it from others. I've decided that true freedom does not come from an allegiance with anyone, it comes from personal independent action and free association. So this is the reality I choose to embrace. Economic freedom is vital to human freedom. Those who benefit from our corrupt system often compare us to the worst of the world and direct our path as such. I compare us to the best possibilities, and seek the road up. Lets not look to how much worse we can be to each other and imagine creating a new reality. What is freedom if you fear you very survival? What is freedom if you can't afford food and shelter? We tend to only like the parts of America that we identify with. Most don't understand the principles of freedom this country was founded on, instead choosing a fanatical patriot sports team mentality for the Red White and Blue. I love our fanatical patriots, but please allow room in this nation for people who try and imagine how to support the cause of freedom.

It is time for a Second Bill of Rights, not Martial Law. This is not Helter Skelter. This is the great understanding. This is the Divine Chaos. This is when we learn to see ourselves in the eyes of every other person. I don't fully understand my role, but I'm building a Field of Dreams. I do the work my muse compelled, and trust to fate. I make mistakes, I backslide, I question my faith, but this is life logged @ Life-Wharton.com.

These beliefs shape everything we experience.

Most of us where programed to be obedient to authority.
Most people pass this on to their children unconsciously.
Many that recognize issues with this program still pass it on because it is backwards compatable with previous versions, installing a total disrespect for authority is disadvantageous to everyone.
Many parents still opt to teach their children to disrespect authority, sometimes intentionally and often unintentionally.

There is no such thing as American Culture. We are an infinitely complex current of mixing cultures in which new forms take shape. Immigrants, divorce, science, offensive media, and other threats to traditional belief systems are maturing here at an exponential rate. We are left increasingly out-of-phase with common illusions. There's no Culture War. There's the people who wish to impose their culture on others as a way of validating their own beliefs and the oppressed. The often unconscious motivation of our criminal justice system is to oppress cultural minorities.

So I choose to teach my children that they can do and be whatever they wish, but must be willing to accept the consequences. I do my best to teach them the value of respecting authority, while still maintaining self-consciousness and self-determination. The history of mankind has shown us the faults in the authoritative mentality, but we've been unable to imagine and implement a more successful program, because previous programs had an insurmountable power advantage. This is changing. I imagine a culture of mutual respect across incompatible world views. Those with power should be respected for the power they wield, not because they are right. I choose to help create a culture where self-consciousness is valued above authority. My children need to learn right from wrong, but the more I interfere with their learning the more I imprint my own prejudices. Parents should be safety guides, not cultural imprinters. As should any form of social contract.

We have allowed mass culture to dictate our cultural values. Regardless of we individualy observe this effect, we are all capable of recognizing it. I believe the way to transcend this cultural blight is to build a culture that is more resistant to it's trapping. I teach them that they are responsible not just to themselves, but to all those around them. We must be conscious of how our actions impact the shared existence, and not just the individual existence. That we are not responsible only for what we believe, but how our beliefs impact the world. These beliefs shape everything we experience.

And so I am grateful to be at the mercy of the winds of fate.

dilemmas

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We're hitting crunch time. We've exhausted all cash reserves and the longer I go without getting a job, the less likely I'm going to get anything that pays a living wage. Here's what my options are now:

~2 income/Low Wage
~Insurance Sales
~Community College (Navy Money)
~Move into mother's basement
~Website
~Mushroom Farmer
~Wild Card

My goal is to have some property that is self-sustainable and contributes to reducing food and information scarcity. I am not going to reach this goal by playing tag-team parents and try to balance two full, or even full-time for me and part-time for my wife. This would be simply surviving. Insurance Sales seems promising, and it would not be like my last attempt at Insurance Sales (I was a Farmers Agent, but quit to work in the Semiconductor industry). This job would be an in-home sales rep for a company specializing in union workers. No telemarketing. I has a very high income potential that would help me invest in advertising for my website, and retirement program in just 10 years. That would put me well on my way of accomplishing my goals at about the time when my eldest is 16. Not a bad plan, except that I can't help but to have no faith in the future of the FIRE Economy (Financial Industry, Insurance Industry, & Real Estate). These sectors add very little value(goods) but consume huge amounts of resources(Profit). It's not a sustainable industry, but all industries are dead in the long run. There's plenty of reason to dip into that bucket while it lasts, especially when Straits are Dire.

If I can popularize my website then I can draw an income from advertising and E-book sales, but popularizing the website is going to take plenty more time and money. On the long-term it's a great chance to be financially independent, but right now my concerns are short-term. Mushroom farming is an ideal occupation for me, but capital investments make it impossible to startup on the scale needed to be self-sustaining. If I do mushroom farming I want to use only recycled materials, I expect to have issues with reactionary purists over the possibility of some theoretical toxin in paper that will transfer into the fruit. However, using mushrooms to recycle our waste cellulose is a future niche that needs to be exploited.

Then tied into all this decision making is the terrifying knowledge of systemic collapse. It may not happen this year, or even in five years, but I must include it in any long term planning. The knowledge of systemic collapse is a terrible burden. In many ways it has been responsible for my own financial collapse. The mind can not dwell on such terrible things without consequential manifestations appearing on one's own life. Exercising my muse helps me deal with the dread, and has helped me identify that sustainability and free flow of information is my calling. My muse and ego had an understanding that the muse has failed to deliver on. My muse has given me powerful incites into Life the Universe and Everything, but has lead me down a path of deteriorating financial freedom. My muse simply replies that this is the experience needed to reach the next point, but my ego rebels.

I am grateful for my amazing wife who is able to tolerate my risk-taking, even when the stakes are so much higher. I am grateful for my mom for being there for me. I am grateful for my friends that share information with me, and my friends that listen. I am grateful for the Universe giving me all the tools to get out of this situation, even if I haven't learned how to use them yet. I am getting better at using these tools, and eventually this experience will prove to be a huge asset. And so I am grateful to be at the mercy of the winds of fate.

“Strange is our situation here upon earth. Each of us comes for a short visit, not knowing why, yet sometimes seeming to a divine purpose. From the standpoint of daily life, however, there is one thing we do know: That we are here for the sake of others...for the countless unknown souls with whose fate we are connected by a bond of sympathy. Many times a day, I realize how much my outer and inner life is built upon the labors of people, both living and dead, and how earnestly I must exert myself in order to give in return as much as I have received.” ~Albert Einstein

The tides of thought that flow through the Internet create a new reality.

In case you don't notice the pretexts, rhetoric, and positioning are being setup for WWIII. The US and Israel are invading Iran, and the Russians are invading the US. This appears to be about a fight between the administration and Israel. I don't know what side China will come in on. What does this signal? China worried about stability, what China always cares about when you've got a huge population of unsatisfied men. But national titles diminish grander flows of humanity and the evolution of the Universe.

There's going to be a lot of very difficult decision making for us all this year. Would you resist a Russian invasion "Red Dawn" style? Would you feel "liberated" from our current oppressors? Would you do as they say? What if UFOs show up? Who's friend, who's foe? How do we create a social paradigm where a war of occupation is obsolete? When a person does violence, he is not only responsible for that violent act, he is responsible for every subsequent current of retaliation. Military force is practically and morally obsolete. Any use of violence only perpetuates violence. Freedom is not slavery, and slavery is not freedom.

The dominoes are falling, time is quickening. What do we want to be? Individually and as the Totality of known Life? Are you going to be someone who helps feed the divisiveness and violence or someone who contributes to imagining a better tomorrow. A future based on truth. Not your truth, not my truth, not any leader's truth. But a loss of secrecy, a tearing away of many of the lies that make us feel safe. The Great Eye also looks inward. and what people are saying is more important then truth. The tides of thought that flow through the Internet create a new reality. I wade into the waters and help dream a new reality into existence. www.Life-Wharton.com is a Field of Dreams.

My 2 cents on the Gulf Apocalfuck

Shallow oil reserves are past peak production capacity. However, the Russians found very massive, and very deep deposits of Abiotic Petroleum. Although the Abiotic theory is not accepted by western science, Thomas Gold has shown that the Russians not only accept its existence, they've been extracting it for decades. It seems as though the Deep Water Horizon rig was the first Western attempt to hit these deep pockets of oil. If we do not access these deep sites the Russians will have a huge advantage going into peak oil, and Washington bureaucrats, Western oil corporations, and their Rockefeller/Rothschild owners will do ANYTHING in their power to stop that from happening. They were trying to hit an abiotic pocket far deeper then any fossil fuels exist. Now the elevated levels of nickel, and the blood-red crude coming from the site seem to indicate they found what they were looking for. The oil lake underneath the surface of the water may be covering up to 40% of the entire Gulf of Mexico. And now this soup of toxic dispersants and crude will quickly spread into the Atlantic, and then the rest of the Earth's oceans.

Tsunami seems unlikely, if not overtly alarmist. Water will not flash to steam at that depth (see steam tables), and any gases coming out of solution should be vented through the drill site. The reports of an explosive Tsunami came from Richard C Hoagland who's other theories are also pretty far fetched. However Sorcha Faal is also pretty loopy, but turned out to very accurate. Just because they're operating from a different reality tunnel, does not necessarily devalue their contribution.

By my assessment there seems to be two likely apocalyptic issues. The toxic gas clouds and the poisoning of the Earth's oceans. The toxic gas clouds are already being detected, but as they expect the flow rate to increase in time, so will the amount of toxic gases released. And short of a catastrophic failure of the seafloor, this will continue for many more decades. Benzine is not only toxic it is a carcinogen. The gulf coast of Florida is also going to be having water shortages and blackouts. There are plenty of rumors circulating about plans to evacuate large portions of Florida. I can find no credible projections on toxic gas levels in the event of a catastrophic failure of the seafloor. The next issue is the toxifying of the Gulf, and soon the Atlantic. The crude oil and associated chemical cocktails act to de-oxygenate the oceans. Dead zones of de-oxygenated ocean already exist, but nothing on the scale we would expect with an oil reservoir of this size dumping into the worlds oceans. This will lead to mass extinctions in the oceans. There's no way around the basic assessment that we're fucked. This is the end of an age, and humanity as we know it will not survive.